HIP HOP BABY!

hello gay

lately i feel like i'm going through another stage of growing up..

i realised i get irritated by in effiency..

i realised people value my opinion..

i also realised i need to work on my delivery or i'll loose my friends and make them feel fucked up...

but some times i guess the only way to wake a person is up is to scream at them and drill it in their head.. i mean the best for u... i mean the best cause i really care.... i do care alot abt the people around me... and i feel upset when they get mad with me.. like joette for example.. i still feel freaking guilty abt what i did..

zach.. u're like a sister.. cause u say gay things.. and i've learnt to accept u for that.. people are different.. some are anyhow, some are more girly in their delivery, i've got yur back on the band thing.. u're right.. we do have talent, we play dam well, we click dam well, we all have the times of our life skating and jamming and just heading to macs making maltin cover his jamming by paying with his ezlink.. haha..aron just being gay and always scaring the shit out of us.. adam in his own world.. but we behave like children.. we never act responsible.. i feel like i'm growing up now ever since i've broken into the real world.. taking responsibilty and adjusting to the expectancys of others.. i've left all old stuff behing and i'm not turning back no more.. its just skating, and cooking and my "homies" hahahhaahahhahahaa.. stupid act hip hop crap ky and i have been saying.. i suck at girls so why bother right..


i still feel so fucked up abt poly.. wasted so much when i could have learnt so much.. education is important.. i agree.. and i will continue after army cause i cant continue now.. i just feel like in 3 years i could be doing what i want to be doing now..

another thing i realised today.. whats my dream.. whats one thing i wanna do to attain nirvana in.. haha.. he wants to be the strongest man in the world.. at first i said, i wanna be a chef.. thats my dream.. and he was like er.. ok..

then i kept thinking abt what he said.. and it hit me.. why do i wanna be a chef.. why a chef.. a cook is no different from a chef..

i realised i want cook for people and make them happy through my cooking.. i wanna cook for children.. i wnana cook for the old.. i wanna cook for my friends.. i want them to be happy and not just eat the same old monotonous food they eat all their life..

i realised this when i saw my head chef after every order.. he complains its a boring life.. but every time i see him prepare and garnish a meal, he smiles and stares at his master peice.. he smiles when he rings the bell for the waiter to collect it.. he always tells me how life is fucked up.. but it seems that this is the one thing that makes him happy.. seeing that, i feel happy and wanna work harder.. i just wanna make people happy by cooking for them.. money or no money.. i've lived my life taking from people.. i wanna show my gratitude this way..

kens left me for romke..=(

whore..



haha..

jeff and his one boob nose slide..


ky looking gay


romke looking gay.. most likely at ken..


ken looking gay.. most likely at romke


maltin and zach at bk staring at their balls..


this is a nice pic of rae!


zach maltin me and ky being HIP HOP baby at tp..