in other words.. take my hand

gay..


i feel happy yet sad.. well not sad.. just confused.. like i dont know mixed feelings..


the bbq went so great yesterday.. i learnt so much.. like i feel that no matter what bbq pit i have now.. i can handle it..aaron made me realise alot of things after our long talk.. what i really want.. who i really am.. i never really thought abt it till he said it..

it also made realise that what if i dont make my dreams come true.. when people ask me what i want to do, i have everything planned.. BUT.. what if i fail.. i'm scared..


i'm confused cause the one thing i looked forward too the whole night didnt happen.. and i guess that was the only thing i was really looking forward to.. and i think i know what i need to do..