not so great day.. no mood to video blog..

suddenly i feel depressed..


i mean.. who said money can buy happiness.. it definately cant for at least my case..


bands messed up.. aaron is sorta just out.. zach is also out.. just adam and i.. and i dontknow.. if everybodys giving up.. i feel like giving up too.. i mean.. i'm really sick of holding people together..


couldnt land shit in skating today..or yesterday.. ok wait.. i did learn new tricks.. but really suck at flip ones..
i mean.. try so hard so many times.. land also fall.. almost broke my dam wrist.. ughh.. i'm going through that quitting period where i feel like just ditching everything.. i'm just looking forward to iona coming back..

i cant even finish writign the song i want to write.. its like the tune is there.. its there right in front of me.. but the words wont flow..

perhaps this is all just a bad day and i'll feel better tml.. or maybe i wont.. i dont know.. who knows anyway..

worst thing is i feel so lied to by a close friend and i doubt i can ever believe what she'll say ever again.. its quite sad la..