dam right i'm emo you fuck heads..

gayy

so.. apparently life sucks.. i'm not as happy as i thought i was.. i'm an emotional wreck.. but at least i'm not in that shitty state of mind i was in today..



but hey.. at least i can think clearly.. i'm facing my problems.. and yeah.. i'm not running away like i always do.. even though its smth i want so much right now.. SO FUCKING MUCH..

well.. i have alot to say abt u.. and like wise u have alot to say abt me too.. now i see your true colors.. u're no more different than adam.. well.. at least the old adan.. and the fact is that u're a drifter.. u've changed so much over the months.. and i'm not saying this alone.. everyone agrees.. so if u think i'm wrong, so is everyone else.. but hey.. theres only so much one can try maltin..zach tried the most.. i feel his pain.. i've never seen anyone so torn abt loosing a friend.. live in your fucked up state of mind and assume what u want to.. have the control of what u wish.. and watch u loose all your friends one by one.. u're not who u claim to u are.. everyone sees right through u.. ohh look everyone.. its just another phase malts going through.. i wonder whats next.. wake up and come back from zachland man.. this is my opinion and if u dont like it, too bad.. think what u want of me.. but at least i'm trying to change and quit being selfish to the people who made me who i am today..the family.. well.. i'm waiting for u to shed your next skin.. yes.. oh.. and u wanna know smth.. personally.. hopping around in circles doesnt make u a rocker.. tatooing shit doesnt make u a rocker.. showing off yur cigg marks doesnt make u a rocker.. it makes u a brat.. wake up la.. u're really a raihanzach now.. are u that desperate for attention from the world?

i stand by what i just said.. i'm pissed and disappoined.. i know i always think i'm right at times.. but hey.. if majority of the people around u feel u've got a problem, obviously u got one.. so please.. wake up.. not for me or anyone else.. but for your self.. be maltin man.. not some fame and money hungry dipshit..



business propsals today.. excited.. nervous.. unsure.. i dont know.. i need to take a calculated risk..


if you call me today.. i'll say that i'm fine..
but i bet u can tell from the tone of my voice its just a lie..