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i think that time is coming.. where i must just shut up.. and not say anything.. and just remain quiet.. i'm not gonna give my ideas.. i'm not gonna say nth.. i'm just gonna follow.. when people look to me.. i'm gonna just act like i'm following the crowd.. why? cause ive become a dictator.. and it sucks.. suddenly people think i want things my way.. but rather i'm just doing what the mass of people want.. so next time, fine.. i shall just sit and watch.. and do my own thing..


and i think i'm being fucking childish abt it as well.. abt everything.. but seriously.. who gives a shit.. cause no matter what i do, it seems to some people as the wrong thing.. its easy to say.. sam is becoming a dictator.. sam is becoming bossy.. perhaps i am.. maybe its cause half the people around me cant make simple decisions.. some cant even make decisions abt their own dam lives.. sure we all have problems.. so from now. at least for a while, i'm just gonna sit around and smile gayly and do my own thing.. esp if u people are unhappy with my judgement calls..

for example.. adam told me only the first like of the second verse had a backup vocal..i insisted it was the whole second verse.. he kept insisting that that he was right.. and soo.. i gave in without a fight.. so when i go home and listen to the song, what do i hear?? the whole second verse with a backup vocal.. i mean seriously.. wtf..


strange thing is.. i never get comments of being bossy or dictatorlike at work cause i'm always following other people..