i have a head ache.. i never get head aches.. and i've been fucking up alot at work.. i hate putting my heart into my work cause when i screw up, it hits and kinda makes me all lost and dis-ca-bobolated..


i wake up in fear everyday.. wondering if today would be day i crack.. the day i start screaming at people.. the day i start breaking things.. the day i just dont get things anymore.. its scary.. i worry.. i worry too much on the inside.. i think i'm just gonna go zone out this week end.. run away so no one asks questions..



and i should smack my self for having such stupid thoughts abt..