star bucks

i've been spending alot of time alone lately.. i kinda like it.. abit of space to think.. breathe.. wonder.. its not abt doing something alone.. its just abt doing nth..


today i skated down to star bucks.. ordered a mocha.. planted my ass outside, turned on my mp3 player and just stoned.. i didnt think abt nth.. i just did nth.. i didnt want to be around anyone.. didnt want to talk to anyone.. nth.. just people watch.. something i havent done in a long time.. and i feel so refreshed..


i still have 1 more year to go in ns.. 1 year has gone by.. but now the days feel increasingly long and my seniors are leaving.. i know it'll be my turn soon.. but why not now?

ugh.. works been strange.. i dont know why sometimes i have to carry the load of officers.. i dont see my friends needing to bother with this.. i mean its good.. but hey.. i like to follow sometimes too u know.. and work is no longer stupid things like filing reports or photo copying paper.. i have to write letters and submit stupid area improvement sheets with pictures.. and then i have to organise nsfs to make sure they know what they have to do for the FCV.. which is a forward command vehicle.. and its so gay..


dammit.. i'm just an nsf.. not an officer.. and my senior is on leave.. and its kinda lonely.. and double the work load.. no one to cover my back.. prime minister is coming to visit scdf on 27 nov.. how not fun..


gonna call lucy and hit the sack..



i feel... rejuvinated.. =D