dan in real life

helloo


today i realised.. i'm 23.. i'm in national service.. and i'm as much as i hate to say this.. but a hopeless romatic.. i remember i'd do the silliest things for the girls i liked.. i did sowing.. i did a massive giant tea light sign.. i learnt to play and sing chi songs, i wore my uniform on a sunday.. i did alot of stupid things.. just to make the girls i liked happy.. strangely.. for my last relationship.. i didnt do jack shit.. seriously.. i was a plain dick.. i never spent money.. i never did surprises.. and now come to think of it.. i was a horrid bf.. i surprised my self today when i was thinking abt it walking with iona..


why? possibly cause i was sad alot during this one.. i remember how she was always unhappy.. how she hated my friends shy behavior.. how every time a prob rose solving it was not the main thing.. but fighting for who was right or wrong matterd the most to her.. i mean.. WE have a problem.. i screw up means we screw up.. u screw up means we screw up.. but now i think back.. i have been happier.. strangely i'm happy now.. and xy is not talking to me.. i dont know where she is.. FATNESS CALL ME!

but yea.. i know if i like someone.. its usually not just infactuation.. its real.. cause u see.. i dont like many people. i go for the strange.. i like people who can express them selfs.. through music.. or what ever.. photography.. singing.. dancing.. art.. drawing.. skating.. passion for smth.. passion to change.. not just sit around and moap your life away wondering abt the what ifs and what nots.. if its anything yiwei taught me, its having direction.. a goal.. but anyway.. my point being..

i watched a movie today.. dan in real life.. its abt a single widowed dad, his three daughters and how he meets this girl who he just knows is special.. its not the same feeling u get when u meet someone normal.. u just for some reason know that shed bring out the best in u.. and u'd make her the happiest person in the world.. universe.. solar system.. whats bigger? now.. how often do these people come around..

almost never.. ONCE or TWICE if u're lucky.. but yeah.. even that ONCE can be almost impossible.. so what do u do when this comes along.. do u take the challenge and give it your best? or walk away in fear.. i honestly dont know.. as much as people want to meet THE ONE, if she/he really was standing right there infront of you, do u honestly believe u'd have the balls to say hi or smth to him/her.. i know i wouldnt.. haha.. but i'd prob go look her up on friendster and then say hi.. HAHA..


and now i come to my platter.. i'd do the craziest things for a girl.. xy, iona.. u guys are like my clothes.. its this feeling that burns brighter than sunshine as we say.. love.. its crazy.. its ANNOYING.. I LOVE LOVE.. its not abt making out with someone.. its not abt being physical.. its all abt totally letting your self go.. u dont wanna make out with the person.. u wanna wake up with the person.. the first thing u see when u wake up in the morning.. the last thing u see when u sleep.. the one u think about immediately when u see smth nice.. the one u want to watch stupid chick flicks and romantic comedies with.. its unconditional.. its selfless.. dammit i cant explain it.. i just know its great..


but then.. there are those that are scarred.. i was once scarred.. pretty pretty bad.. but then.. it sucks with u put in 110% all the way and u think the other persons there.. but actually they left along time ago.. and BAM! u're left saying WTF WTF WTF WTF WTFFFFFF.... but its ok.. u got to experience it.. better to love than not love at all as some movie quote's.. and then u shell your self up.. hiding.. spending time alone.. just doing your own thing.. why? cause some needle dick face vagina screws you up.. making us wonder, is this what love is about? putting ones whole self out there.. and here you were being taken for a ride? how much was real.. why the hell did u even waste my time.. but u see... its these dick face cock masters who are the ones that screw up the chances for the real searchers out there.. its these dick face cock masters that leave boys and girls scarred to take a chance with somebody who could actually be totally out of this world.. and that sucks.. u get the white truffle, the jewel of the kitchen.. and u just mess it up cause u're horny.. fljadhfiouwgiogfsfs.. ugghhh makes me so mad..




anyway.. i have a friend..her name faye.. shes a new friend.. shes sweet.. shes nice.. and the things she does for her boyfriend collin are the best.. too bad the gundu doesnt realise it.. but he better do it soon cause i dont know.. i wish there were times i could cheer u up but i cant.. i jsut dont really know what to say.. cause i know only he can.. and i dont know him.. but i think u're one hell of an awesome friend and a joy to talk to and its people like u who inspire me. who make me believe that hey! i'd do anything to make this person happy.. and i'm proud to know someone as rich as u.. rich with the warmth in your tiny little heart..





i hate to say this to all u people who dont believe its out there.. love will come and get u.. prob kens gonna think i'm a dick and a wussy pussy gay soft mascara wearing skirt man for writing this.. but hey.. HAHAHAHA



ray turned an angel to stone..











JACKASS! HAHA




i need a dam new deck but i'm so broke mannn.. on a lighter note.. SWITCH OLLIE UP STAGE!! one tyco time but what ever.. and switch 5-0 without falling on face or ass.. haha.. and switch k grind.. without tweaking anlke.. ALL ON SUPER TINY GAY SP BOX BUT WHAT EVER! HAHAHA.. and and and.. i have a bloddy heel bruise.. it sucks.. i had my napha revision training today.. it was quite fun.. yiheng me sanjeev and many people.. i just failed my run so after run training i joined the pull up trainees.. we did so many push ups that i ended up puking my breakfast..