monster

gaylo..


i feel my self changing.. becoming very critical of peoples flaws and insecurities.. and i dont like it.. i told my self this year i'm going to become a more accepting person.. which in some aspects i feel like i have.. but then its like i do things the way the singaporeans do it.. wrong untill proven not weird or creepy.. we forget where the heart is.. i mean it really hit me hard.. soemtimes when people diss me i get pissed too.. like when andrew and i used to be friends.. all i ever got from him was just u suck blah blah blah.. and i didnt like it which is why i disappeared.. i dont want to let smth like that happen again.. like i dont want my friends to feel esp the ones in ns to feel like i'm biting their weaker points to get attention from the crowd to look cool.. i feel i have been doing that lately and yes.. its no good..

and i'm sorry.. to all of u whom i've dissed.. except u xy.. u're still an elephant..

u people would prob never read this.. but i just need to get it out..

lin hao, i'm sorry i called u ugly and annoying and gay and fat.. god this is so pri school.. i'm sorry i told u not to look at the mirror or u'll break it.. i'm sorry for not always standing up for u when people who dont know u say u're weird.. this is not me.. and man..i'm so not ashamed of being your friend.. like it takes alot for some one to retake their A's during ns and take so much critisism from the dumb housefly brains we're surrounded with in our building.. u're weird in your own way but thats awesome.. just stop squeezing my ass..

navel.. i'm sorry.. i know u're a very jumpy hyper-worrying-alot person and really dont want to upset anyone.. and sometimes i just get carried away saying u'll get into trouble and bluffing u abt things just for a laugh.. i cant help it.. it is funny.. but i'll try to stop.. i will stop and or at least keep the jokes between us..

danial.. you are one hell of a boring person.. i hate to admit it.. but seriously.. u're dam boring.. but then i'm wrong.. i'm wrong for judging u.. i'm wrong for not accepting the fact that u're on a different frequency from me.. and i'm not gonna stop not including u in my thoughts cause man.. we came into pad toggether.. we should go out together happy..

shalyn.. to u my biggest and deepest apologies.. i'm sorry i've made fun of u.. i know u cant stop me from calling u gay.. but abt the other thing.. i totally dont mean it.. and i guess sometimes i run out of things to say and er.. ya.. u know.. but i'm truley sorry..

i know theres more but i gtg now..


dam i feel like a bloddy wussy.. HAHA