i realised i'm exactly like christina from greys anatomy when it comes to work..

i can be too hard on people.. which is bad.. i mean, it gives me the edge.. it helps when i have to make decisions.. it helps cause emotions can really screw up an operation.. plus i'm a horrible teacher.. i think i'd suck as a senior.. i have this bad habbit of enforcing standards and rules on people friend or foe.

i feel like there should be no acceptions, no slacking unless necessary, pure dicipline and focus when handling work.. i think its ok to make mistakes, we all do.. being perfect is practically impossible and takes years.. but even the best slip at times.. we all have our days where things go wrong.. but we learn and repair and sew up all the loose threads.. help our team move forward..


unfortunately my drive and lack of compassion can also be the cause of failure.. here i am talking abt team work, expecting the new birds to be totally prepared for HELL.. scaring the shits out of them, which seriously, is not helping.. maybe its cause i want to see who'll stand out.. who'll take the challenge.. i know i would.. who can be consistant.. who can teach me new things.. i gotta stop this judgemental-ness and be more open.. well.. i would be if people didnt auto-matically stereo-type them selves.. everyones pretty typical.. including me..


like i always say, please prove me wrong.. PROVE ME WRONG! NOT SAY I"M WRONG!! PROOFFFFFFF! i'm always willing to listen..