lets dance inside our song

Sunday, October 29, 2006

wave to an angle

gay






LE-tangerine-pigeonss..


Thursday, October 26, 2006

VIDEO VIDEO BLOG!!!

gay...


i've decided to be gay.. and start a video blog.. YES.. and tanya its all your fault.. but hey nth beats typing.. but.. ENOUGH TYPING!!!


Wednesday, October 25, 2006

gay..


wa i havent blogged in ages..

did i mention how much i love cooking.. i love cooking.. but i still feel so dead.. my social circle is decreasing.. i need to talk to people!! NEW PEOPLE!! not that i'm bored with my friends now.. shit man.. the pigeons are the best thing man.. ionas coming back.. xy is well.. studying ALOT.. and joettes breast friend dalun is trying out for our band.. thats if we still are a band.. god knows..

aaron has school in the day.. adam has work at nite.. i dont know how to fit jamming in cause they just keep clashing.. zachs got his own issues to deal with.. and i seriously dont know whats happening.. i fear i'm becoming too pushy..

the le-tangerine-pigeonss preview to the vid will be out by the end of this week..so yeah.. i'm trying my best to make it a good one..

i'm not sad.. really.. i'm just lacking smth.. or someone..i think people think i'm really unapproachable or gay.. haha..

and i'm trying to improve my chinese more.. though.. its still horrible..


and everyone should listen to hey there delilah.. its one of those songs u can put on repeat.. and even ah bengs like alvin like it..


i just dont know what to blog abt these days.. cause theres really not much going through my mind.. but.. SLEEP!

Sunday, October 01, 2006

gay

i think back at the conversations we had.. i thought we were tight.. like family.. i look at all the new gnr vids.. and it would have been so fun to go up there and rock together.. but i guess somethings need to go.. your easily influenced character always gets poisoned easily.. i had deep respect for ur drive to succeed.. now, i just find like ive lost it.. loosing it.. i dont want to.. i dont belive u're so different now.. just once again fallen into the temptation cycle.. your own gf knows its a phase once again.. hoping u'd stop being someone u're not.. its sad how a little golden haired poser wannabe can influence u so much.. its funny how u've come to contradict your self.. i'm sorry lar.. i dont like him.. dressing up and looking like u can do so much doesnt make u a rocker.. look at the new gnr now.. the bassist looks like hes some switchfoot member.. axle is wearing big leather coats.. i feel sad cause now when i hear abt you, i feel like u're really a immature fuck.. worse than me.. seriously.. i am dam kiddy.. but its sad la.. i lost a brother.. i really feel that way.. fuck the fame.. u'll look around and see no one u can trust.. we had your back.. i told u before.. u do your job, we'll do ours.. make it work.. and we did.. for a period of time..but then it ended.. oh well.. if their aint no love.. their aint no glory..


its just dam sad..


my gut feelings acting up again.. i can feel the tension.. guess i thought too much into things and went all fairy tale on stuff.. haha.. stuff like this never lasts with me man.. always left with another dead connection.. maybe theres jsut nth left to say..


fuck la.. i'm sad again.. cant skate for shit..cant land things i thought i nailed.. anlke pissing me off... work being annoying.. i'm gonna turn the page..

yesterday was one of those really bad days.. went to get my pay cheque.. raining, slipped into a longkang, scraped my shin really bad.. have a deep gaze in my palm.. worst of all twisted my anlke..

suddenly when i heard the pop, i immediately felt like bursting into tears.. like NOT AGAIN.. NOT AGAIN!! I CANT DO THIS AGAIN! I JUST CANT.. so i hopped back to the restraunt.. cleaned my wounds.. and just walked home in the rain.. dam depressing..

i found 2 bucks though..

i'm begining to feel lost and out of place again.. once again.. i wish i just blanked out.. i'm so tempted too.. I REALLY WANT TO.. and i know i'm just gonna revert to disappearing soon..