burn out..

gay

life is so complicated now.. i may loose a close friend.. it saddens me to know that he might just vanish because of reasons i cant say here.. but.. hes been a great buddy.. great skate friend.. great jam friend.. great everything.. its depressing..

burn out from aaron.. another saddening thing.. i just hope that we all can still hang out even though we dont jam and all..

i dont know how i feel right now.. too many things are on my mind and i'm so confused and messed up..

stangers

we might as well be strangers - keane

I don't know your face no more
Or feel your touch that I adore
I don't know your face no more
It's just a place I'm looking for
We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a different world
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well

I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier to be apart

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a another time
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well be strangers
Be strangers
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know

i'll always be

i made a new gay songgg... its dam gay... its called i'll always be here..

bye

tonsilitis

gay crap...


i have a fucking throat infection.. my tonsils are inflamed like hell.. it seriously hurts when i swallow and when i wake up in the morning.. i'm all bored with everything.. but i'm gonna make it exciting.. i need to spice up my life.. *spice girl song plays in head*

this plan i have is crazy.. seriously.. i wont history repeat.. i cant.. this entry will make more sense after wed.. to alot of people.. wa seriously i think i'm dam crazy to do it..NOW U PEOPLE ARE WONDERING WHAT... hahahaha.. well one person knows.. go ask that long cuppboard..

untill fri i have for my tonsilitis to wear off with the help of the anti-biotics.. if not, TAN TOCK SENG NEXT WEEK BABY FOR OP!! WOO HOOOO!!! meaning i get funky hotel stay.. haha..

gay

it just occured to me i've wasted alot of time thinking abt the current situation..
doesnt seem to matter much to u anyway.. lettin go sucks.. but its gota happen..

anyway.. i was totally drained out yesterday.. from the continous late nights and over exhaustion.. my body just gave in and hit the pillow.. hp on silent, phone off the hook.. i just wanted sleep..

i feel bad abt alysa party.. i keep feeling she was disappointed in me..i was so worried abt so many things that day i think i screwed up too much.. i'm sorry if i said smth wrong or came late that day.. and i'm sorry abt the tongs and the wire mesh.. i really didnt take them.. i left them outside beside the bbq pit.. i should have brought it in and i'm really sorry if it got lost.. i'll pay for what ever u guys had to pay for cause it was my responsibility and i really dont wnana loose u as a friend just cause of some silly tongs and wire string.. it just never occured to me someone would take them away.. so yeah.. i'm sorry if i caused any trouble for u and yur friends..=(


end here.. feeling dam low lately.. nth much interesting happening in my life..i'm not feeling lonely.. i just feel very alone.. its a different feeling..

you say hello.. inside i'm screaming i love u..

gayyyy...

You Are 68% Evil

You are very evil. And you're too evil to care. Those who love you probably also fear you. A lot.

How Evil Are You?

Your Eyes Should Be Blue

Your eyes reflect: Innocence and sweetness What's hidden behind your eyes: A calculating mind

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want. And that's marriage - with the right person. You're serious about settling down some time soon. Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

You Are 26 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

ho yeahhh i am evil alright.. but hey, i'd never do anything bad to the people i care abt.. and wa lao.. i know these quizes are gay.. but someof the stuff seems so right.. esp the marrige part as much as i hate to admit it.. i'm not the player sort.. i dont have the heart to.. i do wish there was just one girl i could devote my self to.. but i'm not saying i want a gf or what ever.. it would be nice la.. like a nice addition as in compared to my already boring life.. haha..

apparently theres a bra commercial on tv now which claims it has NEW SUSPENSION TECHNOLOGY..this is what happens when u mix science, with boobies..hahaha.. its an original people..


i feel so sick.. burnt out.. but more importantly issues have come up with the band and i;ve been in a very snappy mood latley.. i know i jump to conclusions and have a wee bit of a temper.. bt its cause i get irritated when important things dont go right..


i just want you to know
that i've been fighting to let u go
somedays i make it through..
but then the nights would never end..

someday we'll know..

gay..

my whole mood today is reflected in this song..


Ninety miles outside Chicago
Can't stop driving I don't know why
So many questions I need an answer
Two years later you're still on my mind

What ever happened to Emilia Airheart
Who holds stars up in the sky
It's true love just once in a lifetime
Did the captain of the Titanic cry

Someday we'll know if love could move a mountain
Someday we'll know why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you

Does anybody know the way to Altantis
Or what the wind says when she cries
I'm speedin by the place that I met you
For the ninety-seventh time ... tonite

Someday we'll know if love could move a mountain
Someday we'll know why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you

Yea yea yeah yeah

Someday we'll know why Samson loved Dilaila
One day I'll go dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know that I was the one for you

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
I watch the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me ... tonite

Someday we'll know if love could move a mountain
Someday we'll know why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you

Yea yea yeah yeah

Someday we'll know why Samson loved Dilaila
One day I'll go dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know that I was the one for you



takes the words right out of my mouth.. alysas party tml.. big party.. dieee..

FUCK YOU

FUCK U BITCH..

wa dam sad laa.. hahah

gayyyyyyyy..

xyy.. we can be sad together.. hahaha..

JOETTE CHIEWWWWWWWWWWWW.... thank u thank u thank u thank u thank u for lettting me do yur bbq.. i hope u liked it!!! i'm dam sorry abt u know who... hahaha.. but ya la.. THANK U JOEEEETEETEEEEE MUAAHHH GAY GAY MUAH.. yur friend maryann is dam dam dam pretty haha..i should have spent more time staring at her than staring at the charcoal.. anyway.. HIRE ME AGAIN NEXT TIME..


yeahhh.. ginnnn.. if u read this.. i'm dam sorry... i know i missed a chance of a life time.. boooooooooooooooooo....

bullshit..

gay..

i feel dam fucked up..

what started of as a bad day ended in an even worse way..


the wholeday was bullshit..i guess i'm dam glad i ran into joette.. made things even eaiser for the bbq tml..

i just needed to get it out of me.. so thank u joette and xy..

i seruously feel like crap..

hire me..

gay..

hire me to hold yur bbqs.. and also hire me to hack into peoples blogs.. i seriously amaze my self.. took me 2 mins only..

i would like to thank singapore poly for teaching me java and html text..


i'm too lazy to upload pics..

tired of being sorryy..

gay..

silent hill is a gay movie.. not that great.. gaahh.. i've really lost my taste buds for alot of things..

haha.. my hair looks different in photos than in person.. i dont get it.. anyway.. i found the song i was looking for like crazyy...

ringside- tired of being sorry..


i don't know why
You want to follow me tonight
When the rest of the world
With whom I've crossed and I've quarreled
Let's me down so
For a thousand reasons that I know
To share forever the unrest
With all the demons I possess
Beneath the silver moon

Maybe you were right
But baby I was lonely
I don't want to fight
I'm tired of being sorry

Chandler and Van Nuys
With all the vampires and their brides
We're all bloodless and blind
And longing for a life
Beyond the silver moon

Maybe you were right
But baby I was lonely
I don't want to fight
I'm tired of being sorry
I'm standing in the street
Crying out for you
No one sees me
But the silver moon

So far away - so outer space
I've trashed myself - I've lost my way
I've got to get to you

gay...

wa really man... it seems like what we had was totally unimportant to u..
i'm begining to feel its has no meaning anymore to me..

i've always had a soft spot for u..good by to those old days sam.. things will never be the same no matter how much u try to help.. u're just always taken adavantage off.. u'll never learn..


today i have learnt not to waste my time..

if only..

gay...


i just know i'll always be invisble.. no matter what i do.. it seems like u never notice.. but notice the bull shit from others.. so why should i even try..


yesterdays party was swell.. bad start with the fire.. i hope next week would be better.. i know it will..

and of all the days i go to pa sir ris.. i cant believe i bumped into celantro cake..

talk abt faith man..

gay..

finally got back to work.. felt good to be back.. i get the feeling some times that i've done smth wrong.. but my boss doesnt say anything at all.. he even gave me my 15-80 tip today.. could have got more but i wasnt working much last week..but yeah.. today was alright..

saaaaaaaaaaaaaaa came over and we went shopping today.. i still am abit scared of her.. AND HER SQEAKY SLIPPERS..but anyway, back to the bbq..i have so much stuff to do.. but hey.. i'm not complaining.. i hope u like the cake u woman..crazy cow bugging me like one siao kia... nezzy too.. YOU better like it.. hahaha.. and sa u better not eat her share..

i so wanna jam lately... i'm begining to feel i talk to much.. i need to start listening again.. and roms leaving this sat.. thus nite we're gonna have one last dinner at carls jr..


EGG PLANTTT WHERE ARE U......

conversation has run dry..

gay..

i'm very confused.. just very very stoned.. i feel like working.. but i have so much to do.. jamming, experimentations for the bbqs coming up.. i dont know.. and stuff on the mind isnt exactly falling into place..

the good thing i have going for me is that slowly more and more dishes are falling into place.. like my CORNY experiment.. yes.. its on corn.. corn.. i personally HATE corn.. but this.. ah.. makes me come crawling back for more.. even now as i blog at 3-30 in the morning food is cooking in my mini toaster..

i think i'd die without it..

so.. here are some names to call yur loved ones i made while working in the kicthen...


OHHH MY PRECIOUS CELANTRO....

OHHH MY DARLING PARASIAN.. or however u spell it..

ohhhh by sweet corn..

ohh my carrot..

ohhh my GUA.. TRACY!!! hahaha

ohh my chimmy-changa..

i still like celantro..



i suddenly feel lost for words.. i just wish eggplant was here were here.. cause i know i'd not need to say anything to u and u'd understand what i was feeling..

if u're wondering who egg plant is???? its my secret nick name i'm giving to people on my blog so i can talk abt them.. over time u'll realise what yur nick name is if i blog abt u.. haha.. and these names are TOTALLY random..theres no favorism..

Saussages!!!

gay..

i refuse to say hello today..

ok so my "hot dogs" seemed to be a blast.. i'm dam happy they loved them..

the mini subs didnt turn out as well as i expected.. they looked good.. but were lacking something.. i say its good meat.. and good sauce..

saussages looked like exploded penises..

i'm just very confused abt the situation.. u seem to be trouble.. i cant take it.. and i'm sorry abt it..

skate tour!

gay..

past weekend has been gnarly skating with rom, ken, jerald,alvin, sam and the band..
we even played CS and like acted like young pri school boys and all.. haha.. screaming like mad people..took great shots to remember the times.. fun chill out and talk abt shit and singing along to inpromptu oldies..

i guess its true.. i am different in front of the 2 different groups of friends i have.. the tangerine pigeons and ! are really 2 different groups of people who cannot co-exist together.. ! is more like the live for the moment sort.. do what ever comes up and handles what ever is given to them..
le-tangerine-pigeonss are more of the lets plan smth ahead,and like all be deeply involved in a discussion and would talk abt totally random things from the heart..
but both ways, i like both of em.. they both have their different plus points and i dont favor anyone over the other.. they all make me feel happy to just chill and be gay with them..

major announcements to be made..

1.AARON CAN OLLIE!!!

2.AARON CAN SHOVE!!!

3.we cant play on dxo night no more :( cause aaron as a family wedding..

4.aaron got hit on by a gay man in the train..

5.all band issues have been resolved at last..

6. ken has an amazing tolerance for pain.. he sprained his elbow and got punched in the chest by a marble ledge and still ollied down a HUGE 5 set perfectly..

7. switch varial heel flips and switch hard flips seem closer now then ever..

8. i cant think of anything else..






pic of the gang when ken sprained his arm..


pic of ken with sprained elbow..


my ollie mannual.. ken filmed it..


ken having a nasty bail.. it was very bad.. realllly badd..


need i say more?? the gayness flows in all of us..


i must say this was really funny..


sam and his really high kick flip..


Sam and Zamm..


ken and his wall ride at bouna vista..


ken and a nasty backside 5-0 on the ramp.. i'm better at mini ramp..


ROMGAY..i took this..

ok thats it for now.. got a shit load more photos coming soon from romkes cam..

half dead..

hello gay

stuff has been happening lately..

not very good stuff abt the band..

i'll be honest.. i've given up.. i'm not gonna speak up no more cause i dont have it in me to try anymore.. i would last time.. try to get the ball rolling.. try to at least plan and finish talking abt the main issues before we act like cock soon hengs.. but it takes us soo long to even make simple decisions.. its pretty pathetic if u ask me.. i mean theres a time to suggest.. a time to listen.. and time to play and have fun.. but its like its messed up.. i'm glad at some people understand what i mean.. i dont wanna be a bore.. or a serious fuck.. but i hate things dangling around without reason.. patience i lack perhaps.. i dont know.. and this is bugging me.. so when things bug me? what do i do? i run away.. i'm just not gonna say anything no more and see where this takes us..

at least skating has been doing alot better lately.. lost a couple of tricks.. but gained like switch varial heel and switch hard flip.. man.. after so long of constantly trying like an idiot..u land one and u feel like a king.. i love skating cause it gets my minds of things.. issues i dont want to think abt.. work has been great too.. got my pay yesterday.. 600 bucksa rooos.. may seem dam little.. but i mean my allowance is covered so i dont need to take from my dad no more, i can save 250, and 50 for my own spending pleasure.. i feel like applying for giro.. i hate the top up scheme..

anyway.. weird pictures coming up..



i'm speechless.. what next? iron man india? and he gets to wear a metal turban..


my dads old car when we were back in kuwait.. the moment i saw it, it was like yup.. thats the one.. it was one my my strongest child hood memories.. the greyesh sliver mustang...


mr wan in the hospital.. poor guy and his broken legs.. get well soon man...
let go of ur old bad ways.. come to the pigeon side..


this is aaron looking for food..

this is aaron finding food and being happy.. he looks like a gopher..


and ky was staring at him all the way.. i know theres gayness somewhere...


i had a dream of aaron last nite.. and he was naked.. i have to stop this gayness..