maybe i should have fought for what i wanted.. and the slight heart sunk feeling still lingers..


but it should be ok i guess..

whats the point of having all the treasure in the world if u have no one to share it with..

yes its just one of those nights where i wonder why i'm so fucking picky abt everything..

ughh

The most interesting thing about heart transplants is that one completely loses his own heart and be replaced with someone else's yet still has the feelings for the same person he/she loves. This proves that love works in the minds of people and not in their hearts. Bottomline is, love is a state of mind. You'll learn how to forget only if you try doing so. - Dr. Burke, Grey's Anatomy.



crashed, picked up and sowed back stronger and colder.. _|_

this is why i blog

lets face it.. we all have problems.. things that are bothering us cause life isnt a bed of roses..

i'm a happy person.. unfortunately i'm not happy right now.. i havent been in quite some time.. i've been getting fustrated and annoyed with alot of things.. and ive been surpressing my feelings.. i know i have.. i just brush em aside and hope they go away.. i keep thinking ah, why should i take this shit to heart.. i feel bad if i were to start complaining.. cause when other people tell me their probs, i feel mine are fucking stupid.. so instead of sharing, i just try to comfort em and shut up.. why lay my sorrows on you when already have so much to deal with.. let me be your pillar to lean on even if its for a little while.. and honestly, i really dont mind.. everyone needs ears to talk to to feel better..


sometimes i feel like snapping back at idiots.. most of the time i feel like snapping back at stupidity.. i hate it when people assume things with me.. it peeves me off.. i do believe in respect for the older and wiser and more experienced.. i do believe in respecting seniors and juniors and i do believe i deserve some respect as well. i care alot and too much infact abt the people around me.. what sucks is when they use it agaisnt me..i can tell dumbfucks from real folk and i know i'm street smart.. when people piss me off, i just compare my self to them in my head like so..

eg;

look at you and look at me. you're fucking 40 and working full time in a restraunt earning fuck to survive.. u have no friends and you have disgusting teeth and well.. i'm young and well, i'm young and i thank you for making me realise i dont want to live a life like yours.. so if you wanna fuck me up and think u're better than me, so be it.. theres no succesful courieer, just successful people.. u're a successful fuck..


there i feel bad that i even judge these people and i really should not take things to heart.. and then i feel bad like my probs are so fucking lame.. this is why i dont share and appear like my life is a party.


this is why i blog.. why bother others.. i feel better already..