POWER

have u ever felt like u were destined to do smth.. to be someone who could make a difference.. whod revolutionise some weird way of life..

today when i was buying chicken, i felt that way.. maybe i'm watching too much heroes.. or maybe i feel that spark growing in me again..

anywayy... 79 KG!!! =D

i'm just wandering around blankly these days waiting for the days to go by.. i'm sorry if i dont feel like meeting people.. i'm not depressed or anything.. i'm just abit phased out that i will have to find my place again after this NS gig finishes..

i just want to take photos.. stone.. and watch reruns of downloaded shows.. i want to take walks alone.. i want to eat at places alone.. i want to skate the streets of novena like i used to..

i seriously dont know what i'm gonna do when i start clearing leave.. its like i want to.. but i dont want to..


i really enjoyed my national service..

sucks now that i feel like i'm becoming a man.. fuck me..

dont stop till you get enough

1 month more of official work in NS..

its been good.. i'm glad i'm a sergant at last.. unfortunately it came too late.. kinda when i'm sort of switching off.. ah its all good..


i feel bad that i cant be there so much for people.. during the day i'm just not in the mood to call or sms people..work and the gang are just too distracting.. and during the evenings i'm just at gym and i insist on sleeping by 10+.. its like i dont want to have a social life.. which is bad.. i realised i've really drifted apart from everyone once close to me.. unfortunately it doesnt scare me.. its not that i'm lost on what to say.. its just that i rather just not say..

1 more month and cooking starts.. i'm pretty nervous actually.. starting from scratch and all.. working almost full time in a restaurant.. WOO HOO!!



i need more.. this is just not enough for me.. i need to be more powerful.. NOW!