lets dance inside our song

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

the benchmark

i've finally started gym and body is aching, i started studying for my SAT's today.. i think 1hour everyday should be sufficient. honestly i'm phy-ked.. all i think abt is culinary school.. running through menus, tasting new things, cutting my hand and braving through it.. making new friends of similar interests.. its like i'm just waiting to kickstart my hearrT..


now begins the bragging para..
today i received a major major major ego/confidance boost.. i was in the confrence room running through all the visit details repeatedly in my head, and the director of operations and chief medical officer( both of them are full Colonels)were talking abt their senior director stuff.. then the Dir Ops asked me, wa.. how on earth is PAD gonna survive when u ORD. youve built quite a name for your self. at first it didnt hit me.. i just gave a very shallow haha.. er.. dunno.. i have 5 more months so lets make the best of it..

i then got carried away talking on the phone to someone i cant remember who abt the visit. Maj Charles then walked in to check on them and they were talking abt the visit. the next thing u know, dir ops asked maj charles where he found an NSF like me.. and maj charles said one thing that literally just made me feel like i grew two wings.. "i only select the best". dam i was floating..


the next few moments of floating was again brought down by a series of phone calls again.. but nevertheless, it made me realise one thing.. all those days where i demanded things be done again and again till they were perfect, the times i heard people make that "chizt" sound when they got annoyed my constant nagging.. it was all worth it.. it made me feel like a bench mark.. a gordon ramsay.. but in this case.. a sam.. i was the one that people looked to for direction.. a quality control..


what ever you bring forward, is you on a plate.. crappy or not, you decide what you want people to think..

ok enough of self praise.. haha..

here are some gay quotes i i start harrassing people with soon..

There are two things, the level of consistency and not becoming static. You can't be good on a Thursday, and then not bad on a Friday.

One thing we’ve never done – and I think it’s crucial to the success of the business – is taken customers for granted. We’ve never sent out a dish and said, ‘They won’t notice the difference, send it! They won’t know what the sea bass is two-and-a-half minutes overcooked. I'd rather keep the customer waiting 15 minutes and get it perfect

Everyone thinks you’re an arsehole to work for because you get straight to the point. I’ve the most amazing relationship with my guys, and yeah, if things go wrong, they have to take it. But I expect just as much from myself as I do from them

It's important not to rely on approval from outside the team. It's about every day achievement; we have to start from scratch every day. We don't think in terms of what we've got and how good we are. I'm not interested in reading a complimentary letter; I want to see a complaint letter.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

people watching

Well I'm just people watching
The other people watching me
And we're all people watching
The other people watching we
We're as lonely as we wanted to be
We're all as lonely as we wanted to be


wed.. i decided to grab a chicken cutlet and ice tea instead of the usual starbucks..

theres this new bistro that just opened outside novena.. somehow,i want to talk to the chef.. he just looks so know-ledge-able.. some angmo guy.. he has no sign on his cafe, just a very homely O-Briens look, just a huge green board as a sign.. an assortment of wine. i dont know.. i'm still to scared to enter..

so i just sat outside.. people watching.. car watching, auntie watching, small kid watching, maid watching, building watching, clock watching.. i still am feeling abit lazy to do anything these days.. well its the break.. monday, i start gym and SATs..i hope.. HAHA.. and 30th june, finally french lessons. god i can taste america.. and a new garde marger cook book..

Heres to sleeping at 10 for the next 5 months and 8 days.. !

Friday, May 16, 2008

gold

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Yes.. finally.. the big HOO HAAA.. the big(well small) gold little badge thing i;ve been making so much noise abt.. well, plus the 200 bucks bonus.. mentally its made me stronger.. i mean for blanking out my mind when in pain.. I THINK OK! i know if i was asked to do it again i'd prob be dam slow. my mum already told me i had accheived alot esp after being asthametic..but not having the gold last thurs was dam demoralising..


i was really very grumpy on friday cause i couldnt sleep at night.. ok its just a gold thing.. but it was smth i'd been working for since feb.. this goal.. this level of fittness..i forfetted last week cause i missed the timings, and that night, all i could think abt were numbers.. running through my head.. where i was supposed to be, each and every corner in the track.. i needed to do it.. i knew i could and that day i was rock bottom.. my level of fittness is smth i've prob been mocked at all my life.. even now, today people are asking me.. eh u sure u got gold or not.. so skinny.. but thats the amazing part isnt it.. me and ahmad.. pes c bloody clerks are fitter than alot of gundus at the fire stations.. its just a point we want to make that just cause of our injuries or past disabilities, we're still equal.. and tough.. and can type out your reports really quickly..


and yes i'm fucking proud of it.. and we're shit as proud to display it.. it contrats so nicely against the uniform and matches the rank.. HAHAHA. but i mean i'm grateful alot of people believed in me.. ahmad xy.. the mum and the dad..


its like haha.. i hate to say this but like my very on first michillen star..The guide's restaurant ratings using Michelin stars are probably the most recognized and influential culinary ratings in western Europe. one star ("a very good restaurant in its category"),two stars ("excellent cooking, worth a detour"), three stars ("exceptional cuisine, worth a special journey"). ok not even close.. but u know.. and i want to help those gundus who want to pass..


so now a chapter closes and i need to get to my next goal.. the SATS, chinese, and french.. hitting 75 kg by dec and of course, lots of skate boarding..


i find my self getting very irritating.. maybe i am abit too gung ho abt ns.. its not ns.. its just the job.. it so at times makes me feel like i'm in the kitchen experditing orders and planning and executing, checking stocks, training people, sorcing for contacts and cleaning as i go.. honestly, last year untill august, it was prob impossible to feel this way.. but lately all i can think abt is work.. what needs to be done the next day, who needs to be where.. what i can suggest. what can wait.. its kinda exciting.. like the kitchen.. the adereniline rush from time sensitive issues.. this quest for perfection.. makes time just fly by..


so yeahh 6 weeks time the stress fracture should heal and er.. yeah.. gay..

Saturday, May 03, 2008

clockwatching..

what time is it? its not 3pm.. its not 2 am.. the time is now.. NOW! just stop and look.. all the goals u wanted to achive.. all the dreams u wish u had.. indeed it is tml i'll start.. or next week.. but when that next week becomes today, u better be full steam ahead..


Take off both your shoes and clothes I’ll follow
Undo corkscrew drink from the half of a broken bottle
Lately we’re running out of time, aren’t we?
Smoking often and calling out our guilty pleasures
Let’s keep talking anything to stop clock watching
Lately we’re running out of time.
aren’t we crazy for running all the time? M-M-M-M-Maybe
Let’s forget we’re running out of time

I’m off like an aeroplane
I’m licking your postage stamp again
I’m using my right brain and I’m praying that we don’t crash
Who knew I’d come so fast?
So what if a two pump chump can’t last
But I made it to three and I foreclosed a five-minute fantasy
On a short lived flight making love on economy

No jumping conclusions
I don’t think there’s no solution
Let’s get backwards and forget our restless destination
Let’s live in the moment just this time could we
Let's take one moment of our time M-M-M-Mmaybe
Let’s forget we’re running out of time

I’m off like an aeroplane
I’m catching my second wind again
I’m using my left-brain and I’m righting all my wrongs
I’m yearning to turn you on
I’ve been working on getting you off so get on board


But how can I guess by the subject of the best predicate is left unsaid
When the matter is too delicate my loneliness is evident


And it’s You. You’re running through my mind
And it makes me crazy

la la la la la
la la la la la (oh its so amazing)

la la la la la
la la la la la
laaaaa

lady dreamer you might be the soundest sleeper
tonight sleep tight and build your nest upon my shoulder