gay



pluto-nic? platonic? plautonick?


thats all it is.. thats all i need to keep telling my self..

where did i go wrong.. i lost a friend..

gay



i just feel dam nauseous.. its the lack of sleep.. and the amount of tossing and turning in bed last night i guess.. i just dont feeling like doing anything.. just running far away.. cant even skate cause of the weather.. well at least i dont have a sprained anlke..



you say helloo
inside i'm screaming i love you..
you say good night..
in my mind i'm sleeping next to you..
you drive away
from the car crash of my heart..



but its ok.. i mean... its ok.. i guess.. life still goes on.. boring as ever.. the last spark i felt just died in me.. that was kinda u..



heh.. i'm a soap opera geek..


YES EMO POST.. BITE ME.. well.. better news has arrised..

emoness knows me by name.. UGHHH

gay

snap me back to reality
tell me that we'll never be..



i could really use that now.. i cant stand these emotional roller coaster rides.. im not going forward with this no more.. perhaps i think too much.. or perhaps my gut feeling is always right.. i dont believe in verbal contracts no more.. esp with affairs of the hea...



i need a holiday far away from here..just with my friends.. that all..

in other words.. take my hand

gay..


i feel happy yet sad.. well not sad.. just confused.. like i dont know mixed feelings..


the bbq went so great yesterday.. i learnt so much.. like i feel that no matter what bbq pit i have now.. i can handle it..aaron made me realise alot of things after our long talk.. what i really want.. who i really am.. i never really thought abt it till he said it..

it also made realise that what if i dont make my dreams come true.. when people ask me what i want to do, i have everything planned.. BUT.. what if i fail.. i'm scared..


i'm confused cause the one thing i looked forward too the whole night didnt happen.. and i guess that was the only thing i was really looking forward to.. and i think i know what i need to do..

24 reasons to admit that i'm wrong

gay...



wa lao.. today i fell on my ass.. dam dam stupid.. really and i didnt even try to stop my self.. i just fell.. all that was going through my mind was... I"M FALLING... WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.... then i started laughing.. cause i thought of 2 things..

1. the thought going through my mind when i was falling.. WOOOO i"m falling.............. wheeeeeee..

2 the amount i made fun of danielle when she fell.. i'm sorry.. hahahahhaha.. but still i want to see people fall..


anyway.. lately all i can think abt is making a movie..abt my gay life..ESP after all the weird events taking place..haha.. i know its dam ego..but i think my life is dam drama.. really.. and i'm not making the movie to show how cool my life is.. just.. i think my life is pretty interesting.. mainly cause of all the people in it like ken and alvin..and my non existant friend once upon a time part-time girlfriend now turned hwa chong slut getting attacked by monkeys who doesnt wnat to talk to me anymore cause of the A levels..


and i can think of all these cool angles and SONGS to put in the movie.. but not so gay.. with best friends and skating and cooking.. and skating and lots of random jokes.. i just need to think of a story line.. its safe to stick with the boy meets girl and falls in love.. hahahahhahaa.. haha.. but i'll make it a sad emo one.. where he doesnt get the girl just like well.. my life.. hahaha... yes perhaps i'm cliche or how ever u spell it.. AND.. just for kicks.. i want to do it with my own camera.. yes.. my bad one..



Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

gay

often incidents happen.. which fall yur way.. and everything seems right.. its just after so long.. god hears your calls.. and answers your prayers when he feels its right for u..


but then.. he puts u through a test.. a test called temptation.. and then.. u could blow up smth thats was all u ever wanted and dreamed abt..


i'm sticking with my dream.. no matter how stupid i'll look to the rest.. i'll stay true..

eye candy

heart skips beat for a moment
everytime you look my way
my tongue gets tied up in so many knots
i just cant find the right words to say

what is it you do to me
i'm trapped inside your web..
you've got these fantasys and fairytales
just replaying in my head..




midnight rondevous with joette at bustop and mobile toilet.. gaah joette.. some times i feel like just whacking u cause u're so gay and irritatingly funny.. and please.. if your friends think i'm cool.. can u tell them i'm way beyond cool.. hahaha.. like your new cake storage facility under yur shirt.. hahahhahahahhaa.. idiot..

i guess that sums that up.. hahahahaha..=D

gay

ughh.. ok i cant video blog cause the batt is dead... TANGERINE PIGEON BLOG HAS BEEN UPDATED SO GO READ AND LOOK AT NEW GAY PICS OF THE WHOLE GANG RIGHT HERE


at first it started off as a continued version of yesterday.. i usually judge the luck of my day by the time the bus take to arrive at the bus stop.. i'd consider it a really lucky day if the bus is fast.. i'm very patient with people.. but not busses.. haha..

ok i met alvin to eat.. eat really bad food.. the pork chops were so dry man.. but for the whole meal i got charged only 4 bucks.. while alvin got charged 5-50.. its like i was stranded on an island with only apples made of solid gold.. ughhh..

ok so we skated.. i got abit irritated that i couldnt skate and had to film.. and by the time alvin wanted to take over i had to go meet my insurance agent.. and then it began to rain.. so i was kinda really feeling shitty already..


alvin decided to excerise his i can skate on wet floor crap which eventually was a blessing in disguise.. we ended up having a good day.. i shall elaborate more in the tangerine pigeon blog on the exact happenings.. also new pictures and stuff..actualy most of my todays blog entry is gonna be on the other site.. so.. GO


dan dan dan.. u're the WOOOOOman.. =D

not so great day.. no mood to video blog..

suddenly i feel depressed..


i mean.. who said money can buy happiness.. it definately cant for at least my case..


bands messed up.. aaron is sorta just out.. zach is also out.. just adam and i.. and i dontknow.. if everybodys giving up.. i feel like giving up too.. i mean.. i'm really sick of holding people together..


couldnt land shit in skating today..or yesterday.. ok wait.. i did learn new tricks.. but really suck at flip ones..
i mean.. try so hard so many times.. land also fall.. almost broke my dam wrist.. ughh.. i'm going through that quitting period where i feel like just ditching everything.. i'm just looking forward to iona coming back..

i cant even finish writign the song i want to write.. its like the tune is there.. its there right in front of me.. but the words wont flow..

perhaps this is all just a bad day and i'll feel better tml.. or maybe i wont.. i dont know.. who knows anyway..

worst thing is i feel so lied to by a close friend and i doubt i can ever believe what she'll say ever again.. its quite sad la..

dan this is for u u horny papaya

I KNOW ITS YOUR FAVE YOU GAY!



TANYAAA edited.. haha..



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