rainbows have nothing to hide..

man..


this week has been crazyyyy


for the first time in my life, i popped.. my mind couldnt take it.. i just exploded.. i broke down and started crying like i've never cried before.. so badly i ran to my mum and demanded a hug..


my heads hurt so bad that night.. i kept hearing conversations and thoughts running through my mind.. like my mind just wouldnt shut the hell up..it was bad.. all i could feel was anger and fustration..


i'm still feeling that way.. but its got better.. i reaised i'm not a kid anymore.. i have bloody responsibilities to uphold that are far more important than other peoples petty issues.. i cant handle peoples problems.. i mean i can la.. just that theres a limit.. i cant take it anymore...


lucy always thought i was out to make her life miserable.. i have better things to do than deal with teenage angst..i wanted to love her.. but she wouldnt let me... so angry.. i felt towards the end i didnt know who she was anymore.. she said shew as trying to be the right girl for me.. ah.. i have happier things to blog abt..


anyway.. i met mel today! haha after so longgg... was going to hotel rendevous or how ever u spell it and thankfully she didnt pon sch today to hang out with me for a while.. still as white and fat as ever...



ok update on life in picture form!!!




ME XY AND JOETTE at KAP!!! WOOOOO



IKEA!




haha..











LTP LOVES XY!!!!


















ohh ohhhh and this is a beauty.. its a pewter red rhino model.. dam sweet la.. frigging 200 bucks..



this is a dead rat we caught.. and nelson from the simpsons



u know.. i always have alot of interswting things to blog abt.. but i always get interrupted.. oh well till next timeeee


cheers!!

Tonight, Not Again"

The night.
She brushed her hands upon my flushed cheek
Smelled of childhood remnants of a dusty weeping willow
Clouds soothe, Shredded by the calico
Were oh so vast and quick as I was on my own now.

This time like every other time I believe that I never find
Another sweet little girl with sequined sea foam eyes
Ocean lapping voice smile coy as the brightest quiet span of sky
And I'm all alone again tonight not again, not again, not again.

And don't it feel allright. and don't it feel so nice. Lovely.

Still I'm unable to inhale all the riches
As I'm awkward as a wound on my bones
Still I've got cobblestone joints and plate glass points
As I'm all by myself tonight not again not againE

And don't it feel allright. and don't it feel so nice. Lovely.

Well if you should nervously break down
When its time for the shakedown would you take it
It's when you cry just a little but you laugh in the middle that you've made it
And don't it feel allright. and don't it feel so nice.
Lovely.

Say it again. Lovely. So lovely. to do it again
Again. Loving again. It's coming again.
Lovely.

when will i see your face again

i want to blog a long entry abt my x gf lucy.. but i rather play command and conquer right now..so laters!


untill then.. this songs to enjoy!







i realised i'm someone that needs to be in a relationship.. i like having someone in my life..