i have a head ache.. i never get head aches.. and i've been fucking up alot at work.. i hate putting my heart into my work cause when i screw up, it hits and kinda makes me all lost and dis-ca-bobolated..


i wake up in fear everyday.. wondering if today would be day i crack.. the day i start screaming at people.. the day i start breaking things.. the day i just dont get things anymore.. its scary.. i worry.. i worry too much on the inside.. i think i'm just gonna go zone out this week end.. run away so no one asks questions..



and i should smack my self for having such stupid thoughts abt..

last nite felt like a dream..

look into my eyes and tell me....

Where do you go with your broken heart in tow
What do you do with the left over you
And how do you know, when to let go
Where does the good go, where does the good go

Look me in the eye and tell me you don't find me attractive
Look me in the heart and tell me you won't go
Look me in the eye and promise no love's like our love
Look me in the heart and un break broken, it won't happen


It's love that breaks the seal of always thinking you would be
Real, happy and healthy, strong and calm, where does the good go
Where does the good go
Where do you go when you're in love and the world knows
How do you live so happily while I am sad and broken down
What do you say it's up for grabs now that you're on your way down
Where does the good go, where does the good go



i went book shopping to borders and hung out with tanya.. bought 2 books and an extendable fork.. HAHA extends 2 feet.. this week end has been totally empty.. i jsut watched greys anatomy and played guitar..and i know these next 2 weeks i'm gonna be hella packed.. BUT I"M READY! BRING IT ON WOOTZ..

i'm growing very inward.. i dont have time for anyone.. i just cant afford someone leaning on me right now.. it has hit me that i'm the least bit dependable unless its in the office..

i really want the gold.. i really want the rank.. and i'm not gonna go walking away without a fight.. a good peaceful fight of course.. cause these guys are still my friends.. the rank is just a personal acchievement..


i realised i like girls with passion.. its so simple.. passion in what they do.. dance photography music cooking skating exploring driving.. its what pushes us to become stronger.. its whatspushed me to become stronger..

i'm going to sleep soon.. i dont feel like talking to anyone lately.. its quiet but its ok..


no i'm not emo.. i'm just sam!


and i'm disappointed in the fact u fall like dominos to peoples words and what they think.. gossip...who cares what people think.. when u fall.. no one else is there but your self.. and your close friends are the only ones whod listen even after the storm has passed.. instead of just looking around u.. start focusing..




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WOOT!